What if I told you, God has a purpose for you. That every moment is an opportunity to serve God through our actions and our words. He orchestrates moments in our lives to fulfill His works, BUT even though he can align every piece to the puzzle for these moments, we still are the last piece to be put in place to fulfill it.
Over the summer, our band UProar was playing at a summer camp for around 100 kids. I had been praying for God to speak to these kids in a powerful way that week. For God to create life altering encounters for them.
The first night we get to the song “Do It Again”; God was telling me someone needs to hear the words that “God is still working in their circumstance and to not give up. To push through the pain”. During the intro of the song, I told God “I can’t. I don’t know what to say. I will stumble over my words” and I started the song without saying anything. It bothered me for the rest of the night. The next night, the same thing happened with the 2nd group of kids and again I told God, “You chose the wrong person. I don’t know what to say. I’ll flub it all up.”
On the last night, I was like ok God I’ll say what you want me to say but give me the words. But when the intro started, my insecurities yet again set it and I was scrambling to find the words in my head. Going back and forth, “I’ll do it….No I wont”. God knew at this point I wasn’t going to say anything, so He used someone else in the group. He gave Billy a word to say. It wasn’t exactly the same words but I believe God gave him a word for that purpose.
God taught me a lot in that moment about myself and His faithfulness.
God showed me just how little Faith I had in his abilities to work in me. I chose to believe my insecurities over His word. And honestly, I had that gut feeling when you know you had let your parents down by doing the wrong thing and it hurt.
As Billy started speaking in that moment, God reminded me of the story of Moses. Moses told God that He wasn’t qualified to speak, that he wasn’t great with words. So God said I will give you Aaron to speak instead.
But Moses said, “My Lord, I beg you to send someone else, not me.”Then the Lord became angry with Moses and said, “All right! I’ll give you someone to help you. Aaron the Levite is your brother, isn’t he? He is a good speaker. In fact, Aaron is already coming to meet you, and he will be happy to see you. I will tell you what to say. Then you will tell Aaron, and I will help him say it well. I will tell both of you what to do. So Aaron will speak for you. Like God, you will speak to him, and he will tell the people what you say.
Exodus 4:13-16
God wasn’t happy about using someone other than Moses to speak to his people. He knew the words he had put into Moses were far more powerful than what would come out of Aarons mouth. But he knew that Aaron’s word would get the job done.
Do we want to be a “just get the job done” type of follower?
Do we want second best to be enough for God?
I want God to have my best! He deserves it. I may have missed an opportunity to serve Him that night, but I know that God has more in store for me. I am trying daily to be more sensitive to His promptings and trying to have more confidence in His abilities He has given me. I don’t want my insecurities to define my life. I want God to define me. In order to do that, I must look at who God is to see who I am.
God, Let my faith in you be greater than my faith in myself.
